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Paige the Great Destroyer II
17 March 2007 @ 07:52 pm

Hello? Hello. It's me again, but I have all but abandoned this LJ, yet I have the urge to exsplane why and give out a few exspenations of my absense to those unaware; I have more or less given up my social internet escapades. I will no longer be updating this, I haven't been to Gaia in a while and PC in months and I don't intend to return to ether. Such forms no longer hold my intrest, the people however, will most likely aways remain special to me. I no longer have any desire to post, create an icon, or dick around for hours on end over a computer screen. I have said I will remain on myspace, but I am not nearly obsessed with it, nor do I compulsively check it. This is most likely it for my internet trist; it has lasted over 4 years; 4 years longer then anything has.  Truth be told, to the friends I have made, and to the ones who have put up the effort to keep intouch with me for those 4 years, are the oldest friends I have, and yet I have never seen any of you face to face. 

The reason being for this is not because of a spat, nor moment of insecurity, but something that has been a long time coming. Since December, I have felt a lose of intrest and frankly; things have come up. My home situation has changed drasticly as has my financial one, as it has taken a turn for the worse, I am doing the best I can to stay out of the house as often as I can. In the past 4 weeks, I've slept away from home an avarage of 3 to 4 nights a week. Although it's tiring, it's more then worth it. As time has worn on, I have started to crave human contact on a face to face level, and I have manage to find a few people who I can open up to, I don't recall the last time I was this outgoing, or was able to have this much fun with people, despite my past antisocial tendencies and emotinal detachment. After Febuary ended, I felt truly happy for the first time ever since I could remember. I have found people who are like brothers and sisters to me, and has a few of you know. I've also found someone who I care about very much, and wants to be with me. 

I guess you could say I used the interweb as an escape in the past; I didn't like my homelife, or people. But now I've found people who I do like, and have an alternitive to it. These people and the things I do now are a diffrent way of running away from my problens. I completly admit it.  I know that people come and go, when I was younger, people scared me, I would hide in my room all day and refused to come out because those who surrounded me were the roots of what I felt my problems were. I feel like I have waited for a long time for good people to find me, and now that they have, I want to take the chance and spend as much time with them as I can.   

MSN feels reletivly pointless now, I've lost touch with 90% of the people I use to IM on a daily basis, and now I only hear from maybe 1 or 2 whenever I log in, which hasn't been very much. I don't see much of a point to it anymore.

To all of you, who have kept up with me, the ones who have listened to me, given me advice, and made me lyk lol, I love you guys. I know how I've told you how you sucked, and you were all a bunch of retards in the past... but that's my way of showing love, or someshit. I'm not very affectionate. D; Most of you bitches better write to me or gemme your numbers, or Ima be pissed. If what I've said above sounds like "I found new friends, so fuck you guys", then I'm sorry, but to you select few out there, I still care about you lot so much, and I want to keep in touch.

To everyone who has put up with my spelling errors, or just dumb bullshit and drama; thank you. To everyone I've ever cat fought with over something in the past, a grudge, or missunderstanding, I don't know if it means anything, but sorry. At this point, I don't feel like I really hate any of those I once said I did. I know there are some people, I've had really bad falling outs with in the past; yeah, I talked shit behind your back, I was a bitch and I know it. But I'm sorry. I don't think anything of you anymore. I hope that all of you find happiness and a good place in your lives. I always believed in new starts, and that's what I want to do now.  
Do well, and hold on to the people who care about me. Fuck it and miss me!

 

 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
09 February 2007 @ 02:06 pm

Dude, I wanna go to Festival De Mardi Gras this weekend! Dollar longnecks and Erik Estrada is gonna be the grand marshall! Yay C grade celebrities!! ;D

 
 
What I feel:: blahblah
What I hear:: The Killers - Who Let You Go
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
08 February 2007 @ 12:11 pm
And it's all your fault. :(
 
 
What I feel:: draineddrained
What I hear:: The Faint - I Disappear
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
30 January 2007 @ 11:09 pm
Lyk, wow, thanks to everyone who PMed, IMed, left me a post, or card today! So awesome, I can't believe how many people gave me nice greetings today, even if I've had a good ol' FU coming from them. Today was awesome, so again, super thanks to all of my online and offline buddies! I can't believe I've been dicking around the internet for about 3 years straight now, it's crazy to think about, and I've known most of you since then. Well, thanks for sticking by me all these years, I know how difficult I can be, but you guys are some of the funniest and people I've ever met, and the /\/\@D |33+3z+. Cheers, heaven and hell will only know where I'll end up three more years down the road! (most likely in prison. lawl.) ;)

Today was one of the best birthday's I"ve had in a long time. I only really spent like $120, (which on an occassion for me is nothing, I'll go through cash like air if I get the chance. Help me plz. k.), but I had a great day. I always play hooky on my birthday, so today was no exseption. I slept 'till noon, got up, watched TV, and got to go to Best Buy, for about $90, I got a wireless keyboard and lazer mouse set (if I type worse then norm for the next like... week, that's why, this keyboard is fucking small), which is still pretty nice, a DVD player, and Lost in Translation, mah fav. <3 Afterwords I went get some lunch, came back home, took another nap then got dressed again. Christy came and picked me up and we went drive around town and got dinner, met up with a guyfriend and another random person, and chilled at a a crappy restrant/grill-chillies rip off thing. Someone bought me icecream. My mom made me a cake from a mix too, which was obnoxiously adorable; chocolate with strawberry iceing, rainbow sprinkles, and cherries on top. I had asked for that earlier in the day, but I was half joking. It was realllly sweet. Now... I took a shower and here I be!

Queen Ashley will get her rubberband. Paige out.
 
 
What I feel:: cheerfulcheerful
What I hear:: The Cure - Plainsong
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
28 January 2007 @ 11:41 pm

I just beat Dawson at Yahoo Pool, and he didn't even knock the 8 ball in by mistake. I so rule. :)

 
 
What I feel:: accomplishedaccomplished
What I hear:: Scissor Sisters - Laura
 
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
25 January 2007 @ 11:23 pm

Honk if you have a My Space... Anyone? Someone? Helloooo....?

 
 
What I feel:: frustratedfrustrated
What I hear:: Death Cab For Cutie - What Sarah Said
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
23 January 2007 @ 11:17 pm
I applied there today! Yay newjob. It's a little coffee shop right across for the first restrant I worked at in the middle of town, it's really cute. Most of the 'tween' and highschoolers go there after school to do homework. It's no Starbucks, the building it's in used to be a gass station, I remember getting slushies there when I was a little kid. It still looks like a gass station on the outside though, the inside's painted orange and yellows with concrete floors and huge display windows, there are three big dinning room tables in the center for sitting, and there's a really big counter in the back for ordering. It's just a coffee shop, so it shouldn't be too bad if I get the job. Can you say minimum wages again? Hoo-rah.

School wise, I'm keeping up okay now, I have to really buckle down if I want to finish by the end of next year. Blah, it sucks. Currently I have to read: 

Paradise Lost: which is about the garden of Eden (duh, and how Adam and Eve fucked it up for us and how great Lucifer was. 
Faustus [or Faust, same thing.]: About some old dude that makes a deal with the devil. 
Richard III: AKA, Some royal SOB with a humpback and a fucked up arm goes around killing people and sleeping with some bitches so he can have power. 
Animal Farm: Lawl. Talking animals and politics. Lawl. 
Julius Caesar: About the asshole Roman emperor who gets jumped and stabbed by his hommies. 

These books are depressing, people are dying and killing themselfs all over the place. All at once, I don't like to read anymore. Sadsmilieface.
Oh! I named the cat too! His name is Bowie. Now I'll wait for Alex to pop up and say that that's gay or something... Well, I was gonna name him Reggie, but the Saint's had to go and fuck that up...
 
 
What I feel:: blankblank
What I hear:: TATU - Perfect Enemy
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
21 January 2007 @ 12:17 am


Guilt
What is yours?
Explain yourself
Culinary: Chinese Food The longer it's been sitting on that funky buffet, the better.
Literary: Manga Does that even count...? I look at the artwork more then I read it though.
Audiovisual: Anything on Bravo! Top Chef... Top Model... that top Clothing Designer thing... Anything on Bravo with 'Top' in the title pretty much, and Celebrity Poker Showdown. I could sit there and watch any of those like it was the last day on earth.
Musical: Bright Eyes "Cryin' in yer Beer' music about the singer's sex with random girls, depression, and drugs and alcahol. Emotastic.
Celebrity: Scarlet Johanson Eye candy. Hot-Hot-Hot Smex! Even gay reporters want to feel her boobs!


Now I tag:-

aitsukai 1alex1pccom omg_its_luisito parallelzero and redfishcatcher


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What I feel:: excitedexcited
What I hear:: Bright Eyes - Lua
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
16 January 2007 @ 12:41 pm
Yay! I get to go get my kitten back today! The vet called, and he's okay now, they had to give him shots and remove something from him that's kinda ew... But they were keeping him for the past week or so to make sure he didn't get an infection. And no, I still haven't named him... WTF, I'm uncreative. D; 1 G0 sk001 n@\/\/ lol!!12

P.S., Who remembers that angry german kid clip? You know, the one where he plays a video game and gets all pissed off? This is him in 10 years: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3p713bNaO4A :|
 
 
What I hear:: David Bowie - Fame
 
 
Paige the Great Destroyer II
14 January 2007 @ 10:52 pm

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Umm...

http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j135/Lilithnumber17/100_2015.jpg
Sneeze.

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I look like a gay eskimo and my head hurts.

 
 
What I feel:: sleepysleepy
What I hear:: Bright Eyes - I'll Be Your Friend